I start therapy today. To be honest, I’ve been nervous about this for most of the week. I’m nervous about spilling everything to a stranger. I’m nervous about whether she can really help me or if it will be a waste of money. I’m scared what I might find out about myself. I’m scared it will get worse before it gets better.
Yesterday, I spent most of the morning dying a purple streak into my hair. Why? Well, sometimes you just need a change, for one. Also, the heroine in the book I’m writing has purple streaks in her hair, and I am hoping that by having this in common with her, I will someone be more connected to her. Of course, I don’t know how I can expect to me more connected to a girl I created in the first place, but what the hell. Anything is worth a shot. Being relatively new to the process of dying my own hair…
Just a couple of random things to share this morning. First of all, G and I have been slowly watching all the episodes of “The Office” on Netflix. They have all of the first 5 seasons on instant play, so we watch a few episodes every night while we play EQ2. It’s definitely one of the funnier shows on TV. Dwight Shrute is one of the funniest and strangest characters I’ve ever seen, but so incredibly well-developed and consistent. He really makes me laugh out loud, which, let’s face it, doesn’t happen enough in life. Last night, we were watching…
G and I watched the Super Bowl last night. To be honest, we aren’t really huge pro football fans. Or even little ones, for the most part. But I like to watch the Super Bowl. Okay, so mainly we watched it for the commercials. This year, here were my top 5 favorite ones: My #1 Favorite was marked by Google’s first push into television advertising: #2. The Doritos Commercials were all really good last night, but this one was awesome. It had me laughing out loud, which is always a good thing: #3. The unexpected Dodge Charger ad. I wasn’t…
I was thinking about this last night – I wonder how many books I read in a year? I’m not sure, really. If you look through my house, you’d think I read hundreds a year, if you were to base it solely on how many books I currently own. But there’s no way it’s truly hundreds. I would have to be reading a book a day for that to happen. Last year, I read a lot simply because I was reading a lot of Silhouette Desire books in order to better write them according to their “rules”. Since I’ve moved…
Lately, I feel like I have fallen back into some bad routines. I want to sleep a lot more than usual (a simple result of the fact that I feel tired all the time). I am having a hard time getting motivated. I feel generally down a lot. It doesn’t really make sense that after a few years of battling depression, and, I thought, beating it, that this has come back. It’s a mild case compared to the way I used to feel, but I still recognize the symptoms. So why? Well, I have a theory on that too, but…