Baghdad Bomb

**Update on this is that I received an email from L and he is doing fine. He worked with one of the guys who died, Steve, and says that he was a great person who will be missed.**

I read this story on CNN this morning and my heart stopped for a moment. Specifically when I read this part:

The embassy official said the American civilians include “a direct hire civilian employee of the Department of State and a Department of Defense civilian employee.”

My ex-boyfriend L is an American civilian working at the Embassy there. I am not sure exactly who he works for, but I think he said it in an email I have somewhere.

I haven’t written to him in a very long time, probably 8 months or more, but everytime I see something about violence in Baghdad, I think of him and read it to reassure myself that he is okay. But with this news, I know that it is someone who lives with him that has died. I don’t even want to imagine the possibility that he has died. He may not be a part of my life anymore, but he was my first true love and I think you never really get that completely out of your system. I pray that he is safe. I am almost scared to email him for fear of no response. This stupid war sucks.