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While working through my own issues with confidenc and inner struggles with the decisions and choices I have made, I have slowly been realizing that I have based so much of my happiness on expectations,some of which I am not entirely sure where they came from. Let me explain… There is a part of me that feels a little like a failure just because I am 31 and am not married with children. Now, as much as I champion Sex and the City and their single girl life, there will always be a part of me that feels like I…

Someone has leaked the extended movie trailer for Sex and the City, so I of course went straight to youtube to watch it yesterday. It looks amazing. From what I can tell, it looks like the main idea of the movie is Carrie getting married to Big (aka John James Preston). One clip has her saying “I let the wedding get bigger than Big.” which seems to spell out trouble in paradise for the two off-again-on-again lovers. The trailer also makes it look like maybe Steve cheated on Miranda, which is very hard to believe, and will most definitely make…

Today finds me at a loss of what to write about, so instead I will share a couple of poems that I wrote a while back. They are a bit rough, but from the heart. Memory In a bar across townWe gathered with smilesAnd friendly faces.I eased into the momentAfraid of the hopes it heldIn laughter and good time fun.But just as I began to breatheSomeone lit the machAnd inhaled depply.The source of it all was thereOn the table burning slowlyLike a fogotten campfire.I watched as the white ghost of itRaised up in circlesTwisting and slightering upwards.It danced with the…

Valerie Bertinelli has a book that just came out called “Losing It: And Gaining my Life Back One Pound at a Time” and I think I am going to go buy it today. I got a coupon from Barnes and Noble today to get it for only fifteen bucks, so I think I should go get it. Not just because I have a coupon, but because it directly applies to my life also. Yesterday I was folding clothes and happened to turn on the TV and see Oprah’s interview of Valerie. First of all, she looks amazing. I remember when…

If I have an achiles heel, it is this: Self-Discipline. I think I used to have it down when I was younger, but somewhere along the way I gave it up in favor of more “fun” things. As a rebellion to doing what others expected of me, I decided to just do what I want, which then bred laziness and fear, both of which are extremely dangerous. Wikipedia defines Self-discipline in the following way: Self-discipline refers to the training that one gives one’s self to accomplish a certain task or to adopt a particular pattern of behaviour, even though one…

My brother is married! It is so hard to believe that he really did it, and even that he’s old enough to be married already. I have to say one thing though, I love love love his new wife! I think he made a really good choice for himself, and I really hope they are going to be happy together for the rest of their lives. It’s hard to believe I have a new sister, a brand new family member, but I couldn’t be happier. I’ll have to get out my camera and maybe post a picture of her wedding…